I started experiencing bilateral tingling and numbness anywhere from my ankles to my cheeks at least four or five days a week. Doctors thought my symptoms were anxiety due to 7th grade. Three months of misdiagnoses including questionable heart studies and diabetes pricks later, an MRI was finally ordered. A brain tumor story was born.
My initial reaction was excitement. The diagnosis meant that there was a reason behind the symptoms I felt. After months of weekend and occasionally week-long hospital visits, it was determined that the tumor was both benign and not life-threatening enough to warrant surgery. Oddly enough, the only information put in laymens terms for my parents and I to take home was that the tumor was on the “front, left side”…nondescript and painfully inaccurate as I would find years later.
The symptoms were diagnosed as mini focal seizures, and I started anti-seizure drugs. The first, Topamax, gave me hallucinations during math class. It had to go. Then, Keppra entered my life. I went on to live the next five years taking Keppra and napping. All while gloriously somehow foreseeing my eventual brain surgery *spoiler alert*
My interest in brain tumor and other cancer related groups skyrocketed. I became fascinated with Facebook groups (the first of which was the Tumors Suck page) to connect with other people “like me” – that is, people living with or survivors of brain tumors. I researched genetic links to various types of brain tumors, but none of the information was helpful for me yet because I knew next to nothing about my tumor. I continued to research regardless of if it was for myself or for others. I had a feeling deep inside that my tumor wouldn’t just go away..that it would eventually need some sort of treatment..
March 2011: ruptured L4 and L5 from a series of tennis injuries..underwent spinal surgery at 16 like a champ. The surgery gave me back an unmeasurable amount of quality of life – I was able to sit for longer than 10 minutes without crying! I was left with some slight nerve damage in my quads but that didn’t matter much, now that I can exercise, watch movies, and sit in a chair at school.
My annual MRI report read “density increased” and it was game on from there. My first thought was: “If the tumor was benign, it wouldn’t grow, so what new density would be showing up?” Technically, that thought was wrong. Benign brain tumors can and a lot definitely do grow! Regardless of my train of thought, a PET scan confirmed that comet tails were shooting out of the tumor and were starting to infiltrate other areas of the brain. I didn’t learn until practically five years after my initial diagnosis where the tumor was actually located: the left insula, located between the frontal and temporal lobes.
I’ll leave the immediate research, traveling, and selection process of my surgeon for another post.